a deep breath...

As I got up this morning
U watched me and hoped I'd talk to U
Even if it was just a few words
Asking your opinion,
Thanking U for something good that happened, Allah,
But U noticed I was too busy
Trying to find the right clothes matching with the right shoes 
and I ran around the house getting ready
U knew there would be minutes to stop and say hello
But I still,,, I was too busy
And at one point I had to wait doing nothing
Then U saw me spring to my feet
Thought I wanted to talk
But I ran to the phone
Called a friend... Wassup!

Ok now it's time for us to talk
So I find and empty room but hesitation is in my heart
A look down the hall ...nobody there so I close the door
Take of my new jacket? I can't put this on the floor
I have this conversation standin' or my jeans will get dirty?
Better yet I'm sitting on this chair right here 'cause I feel a bit lazy
Almost forgot to pull the curtains so no one can look in
And just when I'm about to utter U some words
Someone steps in
Embarrassed by the moment
I jump up and come up with some stupid excuse
Like I was looking for something
All while U were watchin' me patiently
Ready to give more chances
With the hope
That eventually at some point I will speak to U

U give me so much
U wait all day for a nod
A prayer or a thought
A thankful part of my heart

I,,,,
All day workin' hard
Struggling all week
Every dawn standing tall

I know U noticed that before Lunch, I looked around
I felt embarrassed to talk to U
That is why I didn't bow my head
Glanced 3 or 4 tables over, saw some of my friends talking to U
But I did not, there is still more time left
Hope that I will talk to U yet, but I
Went home and seemed as if I had lots of things to do
After that what is on TV
Suddenly I felt too tired to talk to U
Fell asleep in no time without a thought for U
I know it's hard to have a one sided conversation
Well give me some days to try again and again and again

I came by your house very early this morning
I didn't stop to call you or say hi, and that's quite strange
Now that the lights are out, I'm thinking
If we only talk when I need it
Or if I only miss you when I'm afraid
I always carry you on my bag
Any moment you're out of my sight
I make mistakes in so many ways and
Faults, I have more than 100
I'm Struggling, you know I am

Appreciatin' is something I be forgettin'
Every second, 24/7, I'm a forgetful servant, I gotta be prayin' though
Appreciatin', when suffering, calamities call,
My soul be hospitalized and all gonna be alright

Ya Allah,my only GOD,salutation à muhammad,our prophet,forgive me for what i did wrong......